Give yourself a go

Social Meg
Apr 12, 2016
2 min read

We've all got demons. We've all got history. For the last two years, I've been coming to terms with my demons and my past, with the help of my fabulous GP and a psychologist (because I knew I was going to need help). Its been an amazing journey were I've been building a better understanding of myself and my emotional triggers.

Yesterday I had a real "ah ha" moment with my psychologist.

I'd been in what I call "a funk" - I'd come off a brilliant week of work, so my self confidence was high, but had decided to have a work break after stacking 7 days into 4.... and that work break evolved into a two day "funk". I felt heavy and fuzzy, I shut myself away from everyone, ducking all interaction and barely moved from my bed.

Its stupid, its lazy, its irresponsible. They are the words that go through my head. Shutting down impacts not only me, but my family. I literally can't get myself going, know its wrong and feel a tremendous amount of guilt.

I'm much more aware of my emotions now and therefore am better able to articulate how I'm feeling and describe them and yesterday I was fortunate enough to have an appointment pre programmed with my psychologist, so I was able to ask her the questions like "what can I do to change" & "how can I motivate myself to get going"?

Unpacking the funk = which now has a name (biological depression, apparently totally acceptable given my family history) was a first for me. Giving it name, was a good thing, normalised it and increased my self empathy.

But the ah ha moment came when Michelle reframed my thinking.

She gave me two challenges, first giving new meaning to my desire to "fix my motivation", sharing a saying from weight loss/health guru Michelle Bridges "motivation is like a bad boyfriend, it never shows up when you need it"..... waiting for motivation to show up is like looking for that proverbial pot of gold..... its not worth waiting for, you have to push through and create it yourself.

The second challenge, which is linked to the first is to understand and apply the honest need of "giving myself a go" or backing myself. In other words I need to recognise that I am feeling the funk, but I also need to have the courage to push through it.

This resonated with me and my journey of self discovery perfectly. What's even better, I applied the philosophy this morning and it worked. I can't wait to apply the thinking everyday, for the rest of my life!